My mom and I spoke to each other at length last night.
She was expressing her concerns that all these blogging is taking too much time away from me. Ultimately, I need to decide what is important in my life. And what is important right now is that I focus 100% on my career, spend time with the family, eventually finding a good wife, start a family and settle down.
It wasn't the first time she had such a conversation with me. The only difference is that last time, I was adamant about keeping kennysia.com running. This time round, I am actually seriously thinking about quitting blogging altogether.
Short of running for Elections, I have pretty much achieved everything a Malaysian blogger can do and more. Because of kennysia.com, I have been to events I never imagined I'd go, met friends I would never have met otherwise and get my photos printed across numerous newspapers and magazines. There's nothing else left for me to achieve as a Malaysian blogger.
Blogging used to be fun. People used to like me. Last time I used to get a lot of nice encouraging emails. Now I only get like 5 a month, and those 5 are from students needed me to help them do their thesis.
Worse, now my blog is also used as a medium to attack me as a person.
People leave comments and attack because my blog wasn't critical enough, elegant enough, crude enough, political enough for them. I was attacked because I was a bad judge for Malaysian Dreamgirl. I was attacked because my blog has too many ads, eventhough I turned down many lucrative deals just because I don't want my readers to feel bogged down by ads.
People use my blog to insult me because I am fat, because I have canine teeth that makes me look like a vampire when I smile, or because I speak with an accent eventhough I honestly could not help it after staying overseas for so long.
Sure, some negative comments is expected, but too much of it is seriously just too much for me to take. Like the last time when I blog about eating a snake in Vietnam, taking a photo with a topless tranny in Thailand, or even something as innocent as experience bringing a hamster to a restaurant.
It wasn't like this before, blogging used to be fun. Now it has gone so personal it's ridiculous. It's getting extremely stressful trying to live up to everyone's expectations. Wondering again and again if what I'd write would offend people is driving me nuts.
I can't even function normally anymore. I'm spending less time with my family, concentrating less on work and becomes extremely devoid on social life. I could hardly find the time and mood to go on MSN even.
After updating this blog non-stop for 3 years plus even during my supposed holidays, I feel that now is the right time to make a decision.
I therefore announce that I am quitting blogging forever.
Blogging was fun, but it has lost it's meaning. Ultimately, there are things more important to me than updating a website. It's time that I make amends, and do all the things I wanna do in my life before I lost the opportunity to do so.
A big thank you to everyone who has supported me throughout the years.
Wait, what's today's date again?