Goodbye 2008. You suck.
As much as I am appreciative of all the wonderful experiences, rare opportunities and fantastic people I've met this year, I cannot help but to feel that at times life has been throwing me dilemmas after dilemmas as if to test my patience.
I hadn't been in such a low state of mind since my father's passing. That one hit me hard. This one comes pretty close.
I don't wanna come across as "emo", because the last thing I want from others is sympathy.
Depression hit me pretty hard several times throughout this year. It is difficult to stay upbeat amidst the demands, the expectations, the threats, the slander, the misconception, the accusations and the general lack of trust I perceived from other people and from myself.
Was I selfish? Or did I care too much for the wrong people? I don't know. Seems like such an incredibly thin line separating the two.
So many times I felt totally hopeless when it comes to decisions I made with my career, my friends, my relationship. So many times I felt I was put into situations where it's die die both ways.
Guess this must be what they call the quarter-life crisis.
At least I am doing well on the money side of things.
Despite losing a lot when the financial crisis hit, I saved enough throughout the year to finally be able to build a decent investment portfolio for myself. This is in stark contrast to two years ago when I had the bad habit of spending almost every cent of my salary. I have also learnt a lot about how to run a business, and with those skills I hope to start something of my own in the coming year.
For my new year's resolution, I wanna:
1. Start a new business.
2. Run a marathon in less than 6 hours.
3. Double my investment portfolio.
4. Get less addicted to e-mails and Facebook.
5. Be happier.
Before the final few hours of 2008 melts away, I just have to say:
To all my true friends who stood by me especially when I needed you the most - thank you.
To all my business associates and acquaintances - for the precious opportunity to work with you, I thank you.
To all my readers whom I'd never met, yet came up to me to say hi, to shake my hand or asked to take photos - I am most humbled and appreciative.
To all the people in my life whose feelings I may have hurt, whose expectations I may not have lived up to, whose promises I may have broken - I am truly very sorry.
To all my haters, fuck you.
Happy new year, people. Hope your 2008 was less crappier than mine.